Have you ever felt that ache wthin in your spirit that nothing on this earth can satisfy? Have you ever felt like there just has to be more? Ever wondered why our hearts are so broken by the ending of relationships or the ending of someone's life? That's because God made our hearts with eternity in mind. Endings are unnatural to our God breathed spirit. We have an internal sense of belonging somewhere else. In the final video lesson of the Patriarchs Bible Study, Beth Moore said that our heart string is tied to our heavenly home - it knows that this is not all there is.
That final video really resonated with me because I've noticed that ache in my own spirit getting stronger over the past couple of years. Deep within there's a desire to do more, to love more, to give more, to be more. There's this inner unrest that won't let me just live for earthly comforts and achievements. It won't let me be satisfied with material things. Scripture calls this feeling a longing. "My soul is consumed with longing for your rules at all times." (Ps. 119:20) "For he satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things." (Ps. 107:9) "For in this tent we groan, longing to put on our heavenly dwelling." ( 2 Cor. 5:2)
The Patriarchs had a longing of their own as well. "Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them." (Heb 11:16) God has also promised that same city to us, but what do we do while we are here on this earth, in this city? What is God's purpose for keeping me in my earthly home, for now? That question has been in the forefront of my mind for a long time. And little by little God is revealing his purpose for me....what he designed me to accomplish during my time on earth.
I thought the unrest was from a lack of contentment in my life. So I focused on my blessings and being thankful for all that God had done for me. I began looking outside of myself to find ways to help others. To share God's blessings with others here and overseas became my goal. And as I began serving and sharing God's message, my eyes were opened to ovewhelming needs all around me. The needs were so great that I was left dumbfounded at my ignorance of what poverty really looked like. And as I learned more and more about the truly impoverished people around the world, my unrest began changing into frustration and anger.
In his book Holy Discontent, Bill Hybels says, "Romans 8:20-21 tells us that the entire creation is frustrated, but that by God's power, everything that is broken and frazzled and wrong will one day be redeemed." When we expose ourselves to all that's broken in our world and view the brokeness from heaven's perspective, then we will allow our anger and frustration to move us towards positive action. That anger and frustration is our holy discontent. It is our connection to the God who's working to fix everything. When we understand that, then it's like a huge wave of positive energy gets released inside of us and compels us to act on that frustration and say yes to God and His purpose for us.
"Truth be told, the most inspired, motivated, and driven people I know are the ones who live their lives from the energy of their holy discontent. They have a constant awareness that what is wrecking them is wrecking the heart of God. Refusing to stay fed up, though, they instead get fueled by their restless longing for the better-day realities God says are coming soon. They listen to the soulish instinct inside them that says life just doesn't have to be the way that most people experience it. Most importantly, they suit up and jump in the game when God says, 'If you'll hook up with me, I'll involve you in effecting some much needed change around here!' "(Holy Discontent pg 27)
I love how Bill says that we must not live our lives fed up. We must let the frustration and restless longing be the fuel to motivate us to action. We also must reject complacency and the mindset that "I'm just one person, I can't make a difference in the needs of the world, so I'll just focus on making my own life comfortable". God did not place us on planet earth to spend our time acquiring things while we bubblewrap ourselves away from the struggles, injustices and cries of His children.
I am just beginning to delve deeper into discovering exactly what it is that "I've just had enough of". What it is that motivates me to action. The one thing that starts a firestorm of frustration in my soul. My Holy Discontent.
I challenge you to ask yourself what drives me? what motivates me? what one thing in this world causes me to say, "That's it!, I've absolutely had it! I just can't stand this anymore!" That just might be your Holy Discontent.
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