Over the past few weeks, I've felt this uneasiness in my spirit. It's been a mix of frustration and at times anger at my complacency, disgust at my wastefulness, shame for my selfishness and repentance for my disobedience of God's commands.
I look at my life and I want something more. I'm not talking about material possessions or money. I'm talking about Christ-centered, Christ-filled, Christ-focused abundant living. The kind of daily life where I am totally surrendered and totally satisfied with Christ and Christ alone.
In Bible study on Tuesday mornings we've been working through a study by Priscilla Shirer entitled "One in a Million: a journey to your promised land" This morning as I began day 1 of this week's homework, God used Priscilla's words to speak to the issue of my uneasiness.
She said, "When our souls begin to stir and the Holy Spirit begins gently nudging us to turn, set a new journey, and go, we can know that God is moving us to a new place in our relationship with Him".
I need to acknowledge that the uneasiness is the Holy Spirit nudging me to make a change and turn in that direction. I need to seek God's leading, to set a new journey and then start walking.
Priscilla continues by saying "Closely following God to abundant living requires change in the life of every believer. We must turn away from the way we have lived, set our journeys according to the new paths God maps for us, and then go as he leads."
In order for me to have the abundant life in Christ, I need to modify my lifestyle so I can fully enjoy God's plan for me during this season of my life. I need to put aside my own desires and agendas and prayerfully align my heart with God's plans. In everything that I do, I want to point others to Christ.
What is God asking me to do right now? What is the something new that He wants to do in my life? Am I willing to take a leap of faith and embrace it? Or like the children of Israel will I choose to walk in circles for 38 years around an oasis of complacency?
Oh Lord, I want to be like Joshua and Caleb. I want to do things differently. I don't want to settle for camping just outside of the promised land. I want to be a magnet that draws down your presence. I want to experience the abundant life that you promised in John 10:10.
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