Late Friday night, I wrote a blog entitled "Searching". In it I shared my struggles with understanding God's timing and direction for our life in ministry. Here are a few lines from that blog:
"I see all of these doors opening for Bible studies and camps and serving, and I am overwhelmed. Right now I don't understand God's plan. I don't understand His timing. I am searching. Searching for a sign. The one that tells us what step to take next. Where is God leading us?"
My faith was being stretched to the breaking point. I was questioning whether we were to continue in ministry or if God was leading us to something else. I cried out to God for answers and direction. I was claiming James 1:5. "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God who gives generously without criticizing."
God has been so faithful to provide for our needs over and over again as we've walked this journey. So in my heart I knew he could do it, but my head was wondering "How?" & "When?" I was especially concerned with the "When?"
As I thought about the funds dwindling in our account and our last weekly pay being deposited on Monday, my mind started playing the "What If" game. "What if we can't pay the electric bill?" "What if Rich has to get a full-time job, what will happen to the local FCA ministry?" "What if......." There were so many "what if's" going through my head, that I began to feel discouraged.
I took those discouragements, doubts & fears to God and asked for His peace, His direction and His provision. I was asking Him to "show me where to walk for I give myself to you" (Ps. 143:8) I needed to know what step to take next. I didn't need to see the whole path just the next step. The next morning, I woke up with the peace of knowing that God would give us clear direction.
We went about our Saturday serving at Upward Basketball. On Sunday Rich had been invited to share his testimony and mission of FCA with a small group in our church, then we went to the worship service with our FBC family. Sunday night God answered our prayer for direction. He answered it as only a powerful, all-mighty God can do! He provided the necessary funds to support our family's living expenses for 2 months!!! So now we are able to continue serving and not worry about paying bills or putting gas in the cars. Even as I type this I want to shout "PRAISE GOD!!!!"
We asked for direction and he gave us a GIANT neon sign that says "KEEP GOING THIS WAY"!!! We were asking for provision for a few upcoming bills. In true God-like fashion he gave us "abundantly more than we could ask or think". He has also opened up 2 more doors for ministry opportunities this week...one with an inner-city church plant and another with the Dayton Dragons (our minor league baseball team). And I'm sure He's not done yet!!
We'll continue serving and continue seeking God's direction for this ministry. We know that if we continue to be obedient to His call, he will continue to bless the ministry and be faithful to provide all our needs according to His riches in glory. I can't wait to see what amazing things God is going to do next!!! I just need to remember that God's timing is never early and never late. It's always on time....HIS time!!
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