"His grace meets you in the moment and you will miss it if you are worrying about future moments" ~ Ann Voskamp
I am a big fan of Ann Voskamp. Her writing always speaks deeply to me. I feel that she has such a gift of putting emotions and feelings down on paper so that when you read her words you're like "Yes, that's exactly how I feel".
That's the way I felt about the quote above when I read it. In the painful moments of my current life, I can sometimes find myself worrying about future moments. My mind starts running and won't stop. I can worry about finances, my kids well being, life after a broken marriage, and so on and so on. The list of worries can be a mile long.
Or on the other hand, I can see that peace, happiness and contentment will only come in future moments. I can think that if I can just make it through this current situation as quickly as possible then everything is going to be wonderful. Life will just fall into place. I just need to do it all today. It's a race against the clock for my happiness. I can tell myself that I won't have peace or contentment until.....Until what???
Until the affair ends? Until I see true remorse? Until he's no longer my husband? Until I have financial security? Until my heart heals? Until I find someone that truly loves me? Until my kids heal? Until I can look at her and not feel sick to my stomach? Until I move on to a new life? Until what? What is the magic event that releases all of this peace, contentment and happiness that I desire?
It only happens when I open my heart and "come boldly to the throne of grace so that you may obtain mercy and find grace in time of need" (Heb 4:16) God's grace meets me in the moment and changes everything. His grace comforts me and gives me strength. His grace wraps me in it's embrace and whispers "I am here". His grace turns on all the lights in the midst of the darkness of fear, worry and despair. His grace brings freedom from the burden of having to have all the answers and figure out how this is all going to end.
God's grace meets me in the moment and gives me peace and calm right in the middle of the messes of life. I don't have to wait for "someday" or hope for "someone" to take the mess away. I just have to put my hope in the One who is my everything. He has all the answers and knows how each moment will impact my future.
I can live in the moment of today trusting that God's grace will hold me together when it feels like everything is falling apart. His grace will hold me up when I feel like I'm drowning. And His grace will hold me close when I feel lost and alone.
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