"Nothing is more beautiful than a real smile that has struggled through tears."
I've been quite open about the chaos that is currently going on in my life. It's no secret that I have struggled with how to move on past the hurt and pain. It's been really challenging for me to take the steps necessary to find the joy in life again. I have always been an optimistic person and have tried to see the good in every situation. But this betrayal has weighed heavily on my heart and spirit.
Over the past couple of weeks, I have begun to feel a change taking place. I'm enjoying the little things in life again. I'm appreciating the blessings that God has given me. I am thankful for God's provision during this difficult time. He has used many different people to provide just what I needed.
Last week I had several customers tell me that I had a great smile. One told me that my smile increased my overall beauty. It was just what I needed to hear in that moment because I was feeling down after some negative conversations.
While sitting in the airport on Sunday, I couldn't help but notice my kids laughing and joking with each other. It made my heart so happy. In that moment, I was so grateful to be getting to go on vacation with them.
I'm usually not one to chat with strangers sitting next to me on the plane. I prefer to spend the time reading the latest book on my Kindle. But this time was different. I spent the entire flight chatting with the person next to me. We talked about everything from college football to careers to how we both thought one of the flight attendants looked like a ventriloquist's dummy. It still makes me laugh when I think about it.
And then today, I travelled to my happy place.....the beach!!! I love the sound of the waves and the smell of the salt air. I hope to be able to move to my happy place when my nest is empty in a few years. But for now I will enjoy as many visits as possible.
It feels so good to smile again.....and to really mean it. To know that I have true joy and peace about the future gives me a new perspective on the everyday stuff. I will be smiling a lot this week as I make memories with my kids and my extended family.
My life may have taken an unexpected turn and not be going the way that I had planned, but that's ok. I will keep smiling and keep trusting that God knows what happens next.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.