On this day, December 15, 2014, I'm writing to inform you of my resignation as your Mommy.
I've spent the past 19 years teaching you to walk and talk and feed yourselves. I've taught you manners and reminded you to use them. I've been sleep deprived, overwhelmed and utterly exhausted.
I've loved seeing first smiles and hearing first words. Helping you write your names and tie your shoes. I rejoiced with the angels when each of you chose to make Jesus your Savior.
I've cheered you on through many many years of pee wee sports. I have albums full of the memories and milestones of your younger years. I have piles of video footage of the big events and the small everyday life of being the mom of 4 children.
But you're all older now and my mommy heart is not equipped to let go. My mommy heart wants to hold on tight and stop the letting go process. My mommy heart cannot fathom the idea of not being needed by her children.
The reality is that you no longer need a mommy. You can do most things on your own now. My mommy heart is no longer needed. So it is with sadness and gratefulness that I must close this chapter of my life and say goodbye to being your mommy.
But don't worry I won't be going far. I'm taking the skills and experiences of being your mommy and I'm going to be using them in a new role as your Mom.
This new role will give me the insight to see your growth and independence as a vital step in your path to adulthood. I will still be here to teach as needed but my new role will focus more on giving guidance and coaching you through the choices and challenges of living in a messed up world that doesn't know Jesus.
There will be lots of challenges in this new role. And there will be many days when you will not like the job that I am doing. You will think that the guidance and counsel I am giving you is stifling your fun or trying to control you. Please know that I seek God's Word daily for His guidance so that I can do my job well.
Even though you are older now, you do not know everything and you cannot see all of the dangers that are just beyond your next step. That is where I must step in and warn you. Notice I said "warn you" not stop you.
There will be times when I warn you about the dangers and you will listen and redirect your steps, but there will also be times when you choose to ignore my warnings. In this new role as Mom, I will not be there to wrap you in bubble wrap and tie you down to make you heed my warning. If you choose to ignore my counsel and warning, I will be on my knees crying out to God asking Him to put someone or something in your path to get your attention.
However, I know there will be times when you ignore all counsel and warnings, in those times I must allow you to endure the consequences of your choices. In my new role as Mom, I'm no longer in a position to step in between you and sinful choices. I must help you understand what it means to listen to the prompting of the Holy Spirit and how His presence in your life helps you avoid sin.
There will also be some exciting milestones in this new chapter. There will be first dates, getting your driver's license, graduating from high school and college. We will have great discussions about God and how He is working in your life.
Please be patient with me as I adjust to this new role as your Mom. This is a big change for me and I know it will be easy to revert back to my role as Mommy when things don't go the way I think they should. But with lots of prayer and obedience to God's leading, I know I will be a great Mom.
With lots of love,
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.