There are seasons in life that can be so full of trials and struggles that it's a constant battle to remain joyful. I am currently in one of those seasons. I feel that I am bombarded daily from all sides with things that threaten to take my joy.
During this season my husband is currently unemployed. We're raising support for fulltime ministry, parenting 2 children through the teen years, parenting 1 through the tween years and trying to survive the grade school years with one who is way to smart for his own good. There are constant financial challenges, car problems, behavior issues (not just with the kids), and there are decisions both big and small that require immediate answers.
The weight of all of these issues can easily take me down if I'm not intentional about focusing on where my joy comes from. Nehemiah 8:10 says Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.
I was reminded of this today when I was trying to return something. It was nothing big, just something I bought but realized I did not need. When the cashier told me that they didn't accept returns, I felt myself begin to lose my composure. Once I left the store, my emotions came flooding out and I began to cry. I continued to cry the whole drive home. Of course, I wasn't crying because of this little $3 item. There was just no more room to hold another diappointment....no matter how trivial it was.
This showed me that I've only been giving part of my cares, anxieties and uncertainties over to God. The rest of them I keeo to myself. I try to handle them in my own strength until they overwhelm me and silly things send me over the edge. These things remind me of the hope I have in Jesus. But let all those who take refuge and put their trust in You rejoice; let them ever sing and shout for joy, because You make a covering over them and defend them; let those also who love Your name be joyful in You and be in high spirits. Psalm 5:11 May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope. Romans 15: 13
Thank you Lord for using the little things to show me that I cannot live a joyful life in my own strength.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.