When I got married almost 22 years ago, we didn't have a big ceremony. We got married on a Tuesday afternoon in the office of the Justice of the Peace. We were new parents and didn't have the money for a big wedding or diamond rings. So we bought simple gold bands for the special day. We vowed to love, honor and cherish in front of the judge, his secretary and our 2 month old son.
A few years later, with the help of a friend, my husband was able to buy me a beautiful diamond wedding set. I loved that wedding set. It was very special to me. Every time I looked at that ring, I was reminded of my husband's love and commitment to me. I wore that ring proudly everyday.......everyday until April 15th of this year.
When I got up on that morning, I picked up the ring from my night stand and paused before putting it on my finger. I couldn't do it. Something was different. As I looked at it, I no longer saw love and commitment. I now saw betrayal and heartbreak. The words from the day before echoed in my head. He didn't want to married to me anymore.
I couldn't bring myself to put the ring on my finger. I put it back on the nightstand and began my day. The next day, I tried again. But I couldn't do it. After about a week, I put the ring away in a closet. I didn't even want to look at it.
It's been 4 months now. I've looked at my empty ring finger and I have wished that my ring still had special meaning and significance. But it doesn't. Over the past few weeks I realized that it was time to let the ring go. But could I do it? Was it the right thing to do? I could use the money to pay some monthly expenses. Would I ever be able to wear it again? I would just sit in the closet collecting dust. It could serve a much greater purpose by me selling it.
So today, that's exactly what I did. I walked right into that store and I sold it. I let it go.....completely and forever. My prayer is that someone new will be able to use it as a sign of unconditional love and commitment.
The memories of that ring will always hold a special place in my heart. But that's all they are now.....memories.