Sometimes I grow weary of stretching the budget and having to say "No" to the extras. Sometimes I wish we could afford cable so we could watch ESPN or the Hallmark Channel. Sometimes I think how nice it would be to have a newer second vehicle. Sometimes I wish that I didn't have to get up at 6 am every morning and go to work.
When I look around and start thinking about all of the things I don't have, I can grow discontent and lose perspective on what I'm doing here. I can focus on the things I want...the things that make me happy...the things that entertain me and make my life here comfortable.
But when I see how God continues to bless this ministry and is doing amazing things through it, then I know that it's all worth it. I know that He provided my great job so that Rich can continue to minister and use his story to make an eternal impact.
My time here on this earth is not about my comfort at all. It's not about building a "Carlson kingdom" where everyone is happy and entertained. It's about doing whatever I can to build His kingdom.
Right now that means that we give up the extras so that we have the funds available to do ministry. My comfort pales in comparison to teenagers walking from death into life. Being entertained is worthless compared to baseball players choosing to follow Christ.
We are so humbled and honored that God would use our family...use our story of disobedience, brokenness and failures to impact the hearts and lives of the lost and broken in this world.