This month is a big month for me. It is the month that I turn 40. And to be honest, I have mixed feelings about it. I've actually told my chlildren that instead of turning 40, I will now start going backwards. So this year I will go from 39 to 38!!
What is it about turning 40 that's difficult for me? I think it's the way the number sounds in my mind. Forty! Or maybe it's the thoughts I have from my younger years when 40 seemed like it was so old. Forty!! Possibly it's because of the dreams I had of who I would be at 40. Childhood dreams of the perfect life with the perfect family living in the perfect house in the perfect location. Forty!!! When I think of a 40 year old woman, I think of someone who is distinguished, wise, successful and a mentor. Do any of those words fit who I am as I turn 40? My first thought is "No, not even close". But then God says, "Really?Look again and see who you are because of Me".
Am I distinguished? The dictionary defines distinguished as "characterized by excellence or distinction; a difference or contrast, a separation" As Christians we are called to be set apart from the world, to look different and to behave differently. But what is at the heart of that difference? It's walking in His presence daily. John 15:4-7 tells us that we are to remain in Jesus and His words then He will remain in us. Walking each day in Jesus' presence distinguishes me from others who are walking through this same day.
What about wise? James 1:5 says "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God who gives generously and upbraideth not". God says he will give His wisdom to those who seek Him. As I seek God daily in all areas of my life I gain more of His wisdom. I learn that a wise woman builds her home, listens to God's instructions and discerns right from wrong. To be a godly wife and mom I must consistently seek God's wisdom.
In worldy terms I would not be considered as successful. I do not have enough of the right material possessions or prestige. But I do not define success like the world does. My definition of success has more to do with being obsessed with Jesus Christ and His plan for me. Success is using my time and talents to honor God and serve Him. Using the resources that I have been given to have eternal impact. Success is living each day pleasing to God.
I'm a mom and a volunteer but am I really a mentor? A mentor is a teacher, counselor or person of influence. I am a mentor to my children. I am a mentor to the kids that I work with at church. I am a mentor to anyone that I share my story with. The story of God's love, sacrifice, provision, and deliverance. We are all mentors to someone. There is someone out there that is watching us. As Christians, how we live each day has an influence on another's view of Jesus.
As I officially turn 40 on the 17th of this month, I will do so knowing that I am just beginning to know God's plan for my life. Only in Christ, am I distinguished, wise, successful and a godly mentor. I will surrender the rest of my days to Him and His transforming power in my life. And as for those childhood dreams of the perfect life....the reality of God's perfect plan for me is exactly what my heart desires.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.