We picked out just the right tree and decorated the house. We read the Advent devotions and hung the ornaments on our Jesse Tree. We drew names and exchanged gifts. We went to Christmas Eve service as a family of 6. Hubby and I stayed up late wrapping gifts for the kids. We celebrated all the family traditions, but Christmas felt different this year. Life is changing in the Carlson house and it's not easy to accept.
I'm faced with the reality that as my kids get older, I am slowly, little by little losing control. It is hard and overwhelming and maybe a little exciting.
I've been struggling this month with lots of emotions about this whole growing up and leaving the nest business. I've had several conversations with God about how I'm suppose to be a parent of a young adult without running his life. How do I guide without controlling? When do I speak up and when do I keep quiet? What actions are disrespectful and which ones are just exercising his wings? Some days I can feel the internal battle deep within my soul and other days I feel the pain ripping through my heart.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.