Last week was my 44th birthday. Each year as I approach my birthday,
I always joke with my family that I'm not going to get any older.
Instead of adding a new year, I'm going to start subtracting a year. I think I've
been saying that since my early thirties. However, in all honesty, I wouldn't want to go back. I have no desire to go back to sleepless nights with newborns and toddlers. I truly enjoy the freedom that comes with my children getting older and not needing me every second of every minute of day.
Over the past few years, I've taken the time to get to know ME again. Not the roles that I fill as a wife, mom, employee or church volunteer, but who God made me to be. I've had the time to read entire books and actually think complete thoughts without interruption. I've learned to appreciate the strengths and gifts that God has given me. More importantly I've accepted the fact that I can't do it all and that I shouldn't exhaust myself trying. I've learned to set boundaries and take time to do things that help me relax and refresh amidst the crazy.
And yes life is crazier than ever. I live in a house full of teenagers. Six months out of the year I'm also "Mom" to minor league baseball players. I work as a customer service agent at the airport. My oldest has just transferred to his 2nd college. I'm preparing for high school graduation for my 2nd born and a Quinceanera for my daughter. My house will never be completely clean or organized, no matter how much I clean or declutter it. There will always be wet towels on the bathroom floor and piles of laundry needing to be folded. I will always find empty boxes in the pantry and dirty dishes upstairs. I will most likely be a referee, taxi driver, atm machine, and more for the rest of my life. And I'm good with that.
However, I get a front row seat to watch my children become young adults and embark on their own journeys. I get to transition from being the commander and coach in their lives to a counselor and consultant. Every once in a while, I get a glimpse of what the future friendships with my children will be like. And I love it.
My forties have also brought with it the opportunity to start a new career working outside the home. I have loved being a full-time mom but I am really loving the work that I do with the airlines. It's also nice to have the perks of free flights.
We've been able to have some great adventures. And I look forward to many more.
One thing that having older children means is that hubby and I can go out to dinner and a movie without much pre-planning. No babysitters needed. Just make sure the kiddos have food and we're all set. Recently hubby and I were out at a restaurant, just the two of us, and there were several little kids running around being wild and crazy while their parents were trying to get them under control. Hubby and I both remembered a time when we were those parents and how we had looked forward to the freedoms that we were currently enjoying. It helped us appreciate our evening out together that much more.
I'm so enjoying this season of life in spite of the crazy hormonal, drama filled teenagers, the hectic sports schedules, the crazy job and the challenges of a husband in full-time ministry. I want to savor every moment of my forties and to live each day with purpose and joy.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.