A year ago today you were sitting in a courtroom taking control of your future. You didn't feel like it that day. Your voice cracked as you fought for support for your kids. Your anger boiled when his attorney argued to have clauses removed. As he sat there in silence, you were left in utter disbelief. Could this really be happening?
Your hands shook as you signed the papers to officially end your marriage. You felt the lump forming in your throat but you fought back the tears. Now wasn't the time for tears. You dug deep within and found the strength to carry you through. You walked out of that courtroom closing the chapter on the old and embarking on a new journey to healing and freedom.
And look at what you have accomplished in just one year. You have kept a roof over your head and the bills paid. You have worked extra hours and still managed to provide a stable home for your kids.
You made time for fun and adventures. You made lots of memories and some new friends. You helped your son buy a car. And when your transmission died in your car, you found a way to get a new one. You set some career goals and began working towards them by going back to school.
You had some really bad days but no matter what you were dealing with, you didn't give up. You cried a lot. You prayed a lot. You even laughed a lot too.
But the most important thing you did was learning to forgive and giving your broken heart to God for healing. You have learned that you are invaluable and deserve to be known, accepted and appreciated. You deserve to be loved wildly, passionately and deeply.
As you look back over the past year, be proud of your growth and accomplishments. You have built an amazing life with the broken pieces from the past. Continue to follow your dreams and see what unfolds over the next year. God has great plans for your future. Never quit being the best solo mom that you can be.
The past few years have been challenging and filled with change. My kids are growing up, getting married, finishing college, graduating from high school and making plans for their future. I'm getting my masters and looking forward to where my career will take me next.
So many things have changed and my life looks completely different than it did 3 years ago. It would be easy to have a pity party and wish things weren't so difficult. But that's just not who I am.
I have been trying to choose my word for the year. I've thought a lot about what I wanted to practice and zone in on this year. One thing that I have learned is that when I embraced the challenges or difficulties, that is when I have grown stronger. When I have embraced the feelings of hurt and anger, that is when I have begun the process of healing.
So in 2019, I will Embrace life. I will accept willingly and enthusiastically this chapter of my story. I will embrace the uncertainty knowing that anything is possible. I will embrace the chaos. I will embrace the feelings of joy, heartbreak, excitement and disappointment.
I will embrace the challenges of being a solo mom and trust that God will fill the void. I will embrace the road to healing and forgiveness. I will embrace my flaws, imperfections and weaknesses and allow God to use them as He continues to write my story. I will embrace my failures and use them as an opportunity to learn and go after my goals with new perspective.
I will embrace my strengths and talents and thank God for what He has given me instead of being worried about what I don't have. I will embrace the storms of life because through them I will grow stronger. I will embrace change because it brings a promise of new life and the chance to begin again. Endings bring about new beginnings. And beginnings are rich in possibilities.
This year I will enjoy the journey and embrace the detours. It is in the detours where I have learned what I am capable of and have learned what it means to truly live!!
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.