As I look at my children and how quickly they're growing, I realize that soon my job as a parent will be done. This week has been especially difficult as I adjust to my firstborn being away at college for the first time.
As I think about his younger years, I realize that I made lots of mistakes and many times focused on the wrong things. The teen years were full of battles over many things....some important.....some not. I question decisions I made and worry about whether I taught him enough about what it means to love God first.
Eighteen years went by so quickly and today I find myself battling the regrets of missed opportunities, wrong priorities and incomplete training in eternal things. I try to balance that battle with the knowledge that I did lots of things right too! And more importantly God is sovereign and he will take all of my parenting failures and victories and use them to bring glory to himself.
One of my favorite authors is Ann Voskamp and today she wrote an amazing blog. It puts into words so much of what is on my heart. She writes about sending her own son off to college. She shares her regrets and mistakes along the way. You can read the entire blog here. What really spoke to me was what she wanted her son to know before he went out into the world. I couldn't have said it better myself. She wrote:
Know before you go, son, before you go to school, before you head out into the world:
This sums up everything that we need our children to know before we send them into the world. It's the secret to success that the world seems to miss.
I'm thankful that as I battle my own regrets, I can know that God chose me to be my children's mother for a reason. He knew the mistakes I would make and yet he still chose me. I am grateful for the opportunity he gave me.
Ann's blog end with this to parents:
Don’t only grieve that it’s gone, be grateful that is was.
So today I will choose to be grateful that it was. I will be grateful for the crazy life that we lived. I will be grateful for the grace upon grace that God gave me each and every day. The grace that he will give me to continue training and teaching and preparing the other three for their own journey out into the world.
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