This was written by my 19 yr old son to his Dad. Even though he is away at college, he is still deeply affected by his dad's betrayal.
Open letter to my cheating Father:
You really left us months ago, you left, and chose your love affair over your children. I gave you a final choice, and you still chose her. That day you turned my world upside down, shook it up, and stood on what remained for good measure. suddenly I didn’t know anything anymore, nothing at all, I was left feeling broken and betrayed. Betrayed by the person who was supposed to love me unconditionally, love me for who I was. why wa...sn’t I good enough!? Why weren’t we good enough for you, what did we ever do so wrong!? Time passed, without so much as a text, an email, a call. You chose her just like that and suddenly we weren’t enough. Everything I have done, has always been to make you proud, to make you glow with pride … what didn’t I do, what made you think so little of us? We hurt so much, that intense hurt of seeing no life without you in my life has slowly started to fade into just a distant emotion that I can’t ever remember feeling. I fought for your approval, prayed you would see sense and realize that your kids and wife were worth so much more than a sleezy affair, until I have no fight left, no desire to fight and no desire to ever want you back in my life ever again. It’s true when people say that the hard times prove to you who will always matter, and who never did. I really hope that you live to regret this so much you can’t see a way past that hurt, because maybe then you’ll begin to understand what you put mom and us through. When I graduate college , When I get married , When I have my first child (your grandchild) I will celebrate without you there, because I don’t need you. I can’t say that there isn’t a part of me that regrets that you won’t be there and wishing that It could be different … but that’s the consequence of your choice. I would do anything and give anything to have a dad that would model how I'm supposed to live and act. I wish I was that 10 year old little boy that still idolized the ground you walked on, but I guess, that my perception of you was a false one, you were never that person. As I finish writing this, I feel tears stinging in my eyes. I don’t know what that means, I don’t miss you and want you back in my life. but I guess my heart can never be fully healed no matter how much time passes or how much my strength grows. I hope that this is the biggest regret of your life, but I suppose I should thank you really, for opening my eyes to the man you really are. Goodbye Dad.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.