Before you read this blog....please understand this is my personal experience and opinion based on my situation. My perspective is uniquely mine and I have no desire to start a debate about where a mom should spend her time.
I've spent most of the past 18 years as a full-time stay-at-home Mom. I've always felt that it was the hardest job I could ever have. There were countless days with no showers, no adult conversations, and endless cleaning that never resulted in a clean house. I spent many hours a day driving children to and from school and sports events. Most of my days were spent meeting the needs of others and I ended each day weary and exhausted.
Back in May of this year, I was blessed with the opportunity of a full-time job for a season with Operation Christmas Child. When I started my job in July, I was a little anxious about transitioning out of the home and into the workplace. My fears were about all of the "things" that I normally did during the day. Things like schoolwork with Maddy & Tyler, making dinner, and other household stuff. I knew I would also miss out on certain things at church as well. Things like Tuesday morning Bible study, VBS, and family dinner on Wednesday.
As I began working, many of my fears were quieted as my hubby took on the majority of the household duties as well as the schooling with Maddy & Tyler. Other people stepped in to fill the roles at church that I wasn't able to do. The people I work with are amazing and I really love my job. The transition was extremely smooth and for the most part things have gone very well. But I have come to the conclusion that being a working mom is so much harder than I ever imagined it could be.
In just the few months that I've worked, I feel that it's not really the "things" that I miss; It's the relationships and interactions with people I love. I've missed lots of time with my kids. I miss spending my days at my desk in the dining room helping Maddy & Tyler complete their schoolwork. I miss the friendships from ladies Bible study.
I miss being home on Friday afternoons to talk to the boys before they head to the football game. I really miss cooking for my family. I hate that when I come home in the evenings that I have no energy to do much of anything.
The continuous internal battle of excitement for my work and disappointment for not being there for my family is exhausting. I have gained a whole new respect for working moms. In my opinion, it is so much harder than being a full-time stay at home mom.
In just 4 weeks, my job will come to an end and I will make the transition back to being a full-time mom. I will make that transition thankful for the season that God allowed me to work outside the home. But more importantly, I will make that transition thankful for my job as a full-time mom.
I am a Christian, a wife, a mom, a VBS crafter, a coupon clipper, a thrift store shopper, a football fan, a cook, a student of the Bible and an avid reader.