Obedience to Christ means that we must walk by faith. There will be challenges, obstacles and bends in the path that we cannot see around. We must walk into the unknown expecting God to show up in a big way. There have been many times over the past year when things happened only because we asked big and God showed up in a big way.
As we start a new year, we find ourselves like Peter, standing on the edge of the boat being called upon by the Lord to step out into the unknown and follow Him. The question is "will we believe that Jesus is enough?" Do we trust Him to be there to catch us when we start to sink? Will we trust Him when we're over our head and He is all that we have to hope on?
We believe that God has called us into full-time ministry with Fellowship of Christian Athletes. Scripture tells us that nothing is impossible with God and whatever He ordains will come to pass. But we must take that first step out of the boat. We cannot allow fear to prevent us from taking a risk.
Fear of the unknown can paralyze us and keep us from moving forward. Fear can keep us from stepping out of "our boat" and into a life of extreme discipleship. What if Peter had allowed his fear to keep him in the boat? Put yourself in Peter's place for a moment. The Lord is passing by and is inviting you to go on the adventure of your life. But at the same time, you are scared to death. There is the storm of a lifetime out there. If you get out of the boat there's a chance you might sink but if you don't get out of the boat there's a guarantee that you will never walk on water. If you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat.
You and I were made for something more than merely avoiding failure. We were made to live an abundant life in Christ. Living the abundant life means we must leave behind a comfortable existence and step out of the safety of our boat. Our "boat" could be our job, our bank account, our relationships, our possessions or even our successes. Our "boat" is anything that represents safety and security apart from God. It's that thing that keeps us so comfortable that we don't want to give it up even if it's keeping us from drawing closer to God.
For me my "boat" was financial security. I wanted to know that money was there to pay the bills, buy necessities for the kids and put food on the table. And even though I know God faithfully provides for all of those needs, I wanted to make sure that we had some backup funds to help God out. Over the past year, I've had to choose to step out of that boat and put my faith in God's provision for my family.
There have been times when my faith has wavered and I've begun to sink. I've allowed the voices of doubt to invade my mind and cause a million little "what ifs"....what if we can't pay the electric bill, what if the car breaks down, what if gas prices continue to go up, what if God doesn't come through this time. But God always comes through in His timing!! Jesus has always been right there to show me that "He is enough"! He shows me that when I continue to look to Him and not get distracted by the turmoil and doubts around me that my faith will increase and I can walk on water.
Things have been tough over the past year but I wouldn't go back to the way things were for all the financial security in the world. My relationship with God is so personal now. He isn't some distant character that I read about in the Bible. He is my Abba Father and He loves me and has a plan for me. He cares deeply for me. So deeply that He sent His Son to a cross for my sins.
Today I read a blog that really spoke to my heart and really summed up my feelings as we embark on another year of raising ministry support and the unknown of how & when we'll be 100% funded. Joy from The Graceful Mamma wrote: "I want this temporary life to be one that I can’t live on my own, one that I need His strength for each and every day. Living in this way brings joy deep down in my soul. My sweet Jesus gave it all for me on the cross. He loves me so intently and He has given me the chance to offer back to Him a life of sacrifice. And the truth is my life, the messy one, where I have to rely on Him to get me through, is more beautiful than any sea view, any candlelit dinner, or any afternoon spent journaling at Starbucks. The messy life I have, the one He chose for me, is far more beautiful than any comfortable relaxing moment I can imagine, because He is in it. And, now, knowing exactly what I am in for, I choose it all again. "
This life that God has chosen for me is hard, wonderful, messy, joyful, and His perfect plan. And because of that, I choose to step out of the boat and walk on the water.
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