I've spent this week preparing for our family to go in 3 different directions. Three of us will be going to Nicaragua, our oldest will be going to Haiti and the youngest two will be spending time in Georgia with their grandparents. While I would have preferred for Christian to go to Nicaragua with us, I love Jesus more. I know that He has a plan to use Christian for His glory. I trust Him and His plan for Christian and for all of my children.
My continual prayer is that my children seek God and His direction in all things. I don't want to interfere with God's call on their lives. I don't want my children to be worried that if God calls them to a certain career or a mission field, I won't support them. My desire is for them to love Jesus more than they love me or anyone else. I pray daily for strength to lay aside the "mom guilt trips". I want the voice that my children hear in their hearts & heads to be unmistakably God's voice!!
As I continue to grow in my relationship with God, I'm also growing as a parent. The children that God gave me have changed me and made me get real with my own weakness of being a people-pleaser. I've changed my focus. I'm now focusing on pleasing God more than people. That's not always easy. Sometimes people don't understand that God calls us to love Jesus so much that the rest of our relationships look like hate in comparison. He comes first before spouses, children, parents, siblings, friends, jobs, & hobbies. Living our lives to please Him should be our mission.
I understand that as I raise my children to love Jesus more, when they become young adults there will be times when they choose to serve others over doing what I want. They will put Jesus first. In those times, I pray that I will see the fruits of my labor as a parent. I pray that I will rejoice with them in following God's direction. I pray that as we all continue to grow in our relationships with our Heavenly Father that we will live each day loving Jesus more.
I was reminded tonight in a message by David Platt that our purpose is not to have happy marriages & families or healthy lives or successful careers or comfortable lifestyles. Our main purpose in this life is to spread the gospel message to the ends of the earth. Lord give my family the desire to fulfill your purpose and love you more than anything else