The words echo over and over in my head, "You helped this situation by being the victim, you are good at that rather than take responsibility. You never appreciated what I did. It was never enough for you....never." I know that they are lies but yet they play on repeat in my head.
I begin to doubt the truth....the real truth of what I know. I must fight the lies with the facts. Denying the truth does not change the facts. Just because someone says something doesn't make it true. It could be their perception or their opinion. That does not make it my truth. I don't have to accept it.
When I weigh the facts, I erase the doubt and silence the lies. I take away their power over me. When I win the internal battle then I have peace and joy. I gain strength and courage to stand up and fight.
I am not a victim. I am a survivor.
I am not a victim. I am a warrior.
I will stand with confidence on the truth. I will not let the lies steal my peace and joy. I will not let the attacks weaken me. I will continue to be strong for those who depend on me.
God is my defender. He will fight for me against my enemies to give me victory. He will go before me and make a way. He is my strength and makes me brave. He walks me through places of trouble and suffering.
There is nothing that anyone can say to me or about me that invalidates who I am and what I am becoming. You can criticize me, attack me, curse me, withhold things from me, speak badly of me, bring false accusations against me or try to shame me to try to defeat me. But I will not be defeated because I am a warrior.
I wasn't born a warrior. My pain shaped me into a warrior.
I became a warrior when I chose to get back up after I was knocked down.
I became a warrior when I refused to back down and stood up for my dignity and my self worth.
I became a warrior when I refused to be a silent victim hiding in the shadows.
I became a warrior when I fought in spite of the fear.
I became a warrior when I refused to allow the pain and struggle to make me a victim.
I became a warrior when I shared my story and refused to be ashamed of it.
I became a warrior when I wiped the tears away and refused to be a slave to bad news.
A warrior is that woman who gets up despite others trying to destroy her. She declares victory even when she can't see past the battle in front of her. She knows God is by her side and that he will work miracles on her behalf.
I am that woman.